My first summer with you, was also the best.
For I learnt how to love, and how love feels like.
I had my first kiss, my first touch, my first hugs.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let them go.
I learnt that to love someone, you learn to let yourself go too; for them.
whispers of summerher storyfriendsbirdsongsmemoriessunrays
sometimes what i want to say isn't apparent through what you just see(:
oh, he has something to say - for best effects, a) turn the sound on. b) pummel the keyboard. [after you're done with it it should have disintegrated, srsly] c) wallop the mouse. [it should have disintegrated too] d) bash the side of the cpu. until the entire side panel falls out. e) punch the front of the cpu. until the entire thing goes poof and falls out too. f) hammer in the top of the cpu. [at this point, if you've bashed the cpu hard enough it should become a smoking, black pile of stuff] g) smash the monitor [until the frame comes off and that's smash until it not only cracks but goes crash bang poof] h) whack the top of the monitor [until the entire screen falls out and the top blows off and the entire thing collapses] i) rain blows on the fallen out screen until it is completely dented.
there, a completely bashed up computer. feel less stressed already?
if you're not you can always click repair, and bash up the entire computer once more (:
9:25 pm
Sunday, May 27, 2007
sometimes i just want to yell that im not as stupid as you think i am.
but sometimes i think tht i am, rly.
we shall see; judgement day's wednesday.
11:12 pm
Thursday, May 24, 2007
rawrrr.
rawrrr. actl, why doesnt everyone tell me that they hate me, full stop. instead of doing annoying thgs to me jst to irritate me so they can have a reason to hate me more. oh dont bother; im just crazy, thts all.
flu ): roarrr. i am missing the penultimate day of school. the reason: the king of flu viruses has decided to pay me a visit. at a rather hefty cost for me too. [i wish i had an mc for ytd! training was a complete waste of my time; seeing that i've taken the accred alr; and evac wasnt particularly interesting what with me sitting arnd doing nth for the major part of the lesson] and today there are impt lessons like ss and rs [ss is impt only cuz mr chua loves ponning lessons giving us periodic breaks from his lessons] therefore ss lessons [with mr chua's presence gracing them] are very precious; and we're deciding what to do in the hols for rs and seeing tht im the rs team leader, my rs grp will be running arnd headless for the rest of today's rs, AND we're meeting dr slatter today so.. [imagine ensuing pandemonium] haha my group isnt so terrible actl xD i'd seriously not mind ponning teoch's chinese zuowen writing today haha, which i am alr doing, but i'd rather endure chinese zuowen than miss rs and ss, and lit! frankenstein is scary; but i'd rather watch it! D: i think they're watching the last part of the movie today too omg not fair! ):
but still! oh your highness and terribleness of flu viruses, please persuade your troops to vacate this already very whacked out person, i beg of you. or at least give me a break tmr; and return on saturday if you must cause me more misery. i cnt not go to sch tomorrow!
10:21 am
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
the results of hoping :D
the results of hoping :D oh my goodness; they're moderating english for sure! its confirmed tht english'll only be counted as upon 40 instead of upon 50! (: ms grace told us today, and she isnt the sort of teacher to play mean tricks on you by making you super happy then destroying your hope telling you that they're just joking so rejoice, everyone :D haha thank you! (:
7:53 pm
Monday, May 21, 2007
should i..?
should i..? i feel like uprooting everything again and transplanting them all to another place, just to move; just to avoid someone; just to get out of all this. call it running away, call it cowardice, or whatever you wish to. i dont want to care anymore.
actl i do care; its why im doing this in the first place. but i cant take it anymore. so you've done what you wanted to do; good for you. now leave me alone. all this time you were pretending; but now i know.
*
omg love this song; though its rly sad. i like emo songs >< Concrete Angel - Martina McBride She walks to school with the lunch she packed Nobody knows what she's holdin' back Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday She hides the bruises with linen and lace
The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask It's hard to see the pain behind the mask Bearing the burden of a secret storm Sometimes she wishes she was never born
Through the wind and the rain She stands hard as a stone In a world that she can't rise above But her dreams give her wings And she flies to a place where she's loved Concrete angel
Somebody cries in the middle of the night The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate When morning comes it'll be too late
[Repeat Chorus]
A statue stands in a shaded place An angel girl with an upturned face A name is written on a polished rock A broken heart that the world forgot
[Repeat Chorus]
7:11 pm
Saturday, May 19, 2007
rbd! maybe being second best isnt so bad. after all, most of the time, when you know who's second, you know who's first, and the cheers are always the loudest when the second is announced. [dont mind my random revelations (:]
but all the same, nothing can take away the initial sheer joy of being first :D [315 clones! you guys rocked okay!] much as i think we won by luck - the microphones screwed up for 312, and 311's song didnt exactly strike a chord with the judges [pardon random puns too! xD] and they liked our select-delete-copy-paste cloning symbolism so yeah (: and i had a clone, just for that one day xD go and read never let me go if you dont know what im talking about! :D
4:01 pm
Friday, May 18, 2007
hope (:
hope (:
maybe it's coincidence; but i find that hoping really helps a lot.
the day before they returned our english papers i was about as agitated as a fish out of water about whether i'd fail or not [cuz the average level mark was a fail mark; from which logical people would have worked out that more than half the level failed]. and i was told tht 'we can always hope', and 'always remember to hope'. [thank you (:]
guess what; the next day, i dint want to look at my english paper, although i was hoping right up till i had it in my hands. i told shihui to look at my marks for me, i was afraid that looking at them myself would destroy my fragile thread of hope.
i was afraid; yet i hoped.
i passed english. not by a lot, but still (:
then there were rumours that they might [just might] moderate english; so i wrote down 'hope #1: that they moderate english!'
tht was ytd. and guess what, today mel told me tht she heard someone [i forgot who ><] say tht a teacher told her english would be considered upon 40 instead of 50 [which essentially means that my english mark would be 28/40 instead of 28/50]. and i must say, that is a huge moderation. [my gpa of 2.4 will then be a 3.2 haha (x] and alot of failures would now pass. its not officially confirmed, but if a teacher said that it shld be true. [and im hoping!]
i promise to always hope now, before i start being pessimistic and saying tht im gna fail (: becuz i've seen what optimism can do. (: [even if i failed english i wouldnt have cried anyway, unlike for chinese and bio ><, because i was happy, at least. (:] thanks (:(:
oh, he has something to say - for best effects, a) turn the sound on. b) pummel the keyboard. [after you're done with it it should have disintegrated, srsly] c) wallop the mouse. [it should have disintegrated too] d) bash the side of the cpu. until the entire side panel falls out. e) punch the front of the cpu. until the entire thing goes poof and falls out too. f) hammer in the top of the cpu. [at this point, if you've bashed the cpu hard enough it should become a smoking, black pile of stuff] g) smash the monitor [until the frame comes off and that's smash until it not only cracks but goes crash bang poof] h) whack the top of the monitor [until the entire screen falls out and the top blows off and the entire thing collapses] i) rain blows on the fallen out screen until it is completely dented.
there, a completely bashed up computer. feel less stressed already?
if you're not you can always click repair, and bash up the entire computer once more (:
9:25 pm |
Sunday, May 27, 2007
sometimes i just want to yell that im not as stupid as you think i am.
but sometimes i think tht i am, rly.
we shall see; judgement day's wednesday.
11:12 pm |
Thursday, May 24, 2007
rawrrr.
rawrrr. actl, why doesnt everyone tell me that they hate me, full stop. instead of doing annoying thgs to me jst to irritate me so they can have a reason to hate me more. oh dont bother; im just crazy, thts all.
flu ): roarrr. i am missing the penultimate day of school. the reason: the king of flu viruses has decided to pay me a visit. at a rather hefty cost for me too. [i wish i had an mc for ytd! training was a complete waste of my time; seeing that i've taken the accred alr; and evac wasnt particularly interesting what with me sitting arnd doing nth for the major part of the lesson] and today there are impt lessons like ss and rs [ss is impt only cuz mr chua loves ponning lessons giving us periodic breaks from his lessons] therefore ss lessons [with mr chua's presence gracing them] are very precious; and we're deciding what to do in the hols for rs and seeing tht im the rs team leader, my rs grp will be running arnd headless for the rest of today's rs, AND we're meeting dr slatter today so.. [imagine ensuing pandemonium] haha my group isnt so terrible actl xD i'd seriously not mind ponning teoch's chinese zuowen writing today haha, which i am alr doing, but i'd rather endure chinese zuowen than miss rs and ss, and lit! frankenstein is scary; but i'd rather watch it! D: i think they're watching the last part of the movie today too omg not fair! ):
but still! oh your highness and terribleness of flu viruses, please persuade your troops to vacate this already very whacked out person, i beg of you. or at least give me a break tmr; and return on saturday if you must cause me more misery. i cnt not go to sch tomorrow!
10:21 am |
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
the results of hoping :D
the results of hoping :D oh my goodness; they're moderating english for sure! its confirmed tht english'll only be counted as upon 40 instead of upon 50! (: ms grace told us today, and she isnt the sort of teacher to play mean tricks on you by making you super happy then destroying your hope telling you that they're just joking so rejoice, everyone :D haha thank you! (:
7:53 pm |
Monday, May 21, 2007
should i..?
should i..? i feel like uprooting everything again and transplanting them all to another place, just to move; just to avoid someone; just to get out of all this. call it running away, call it cowardice, or whatever you wish to. i dont want to care anymore.
actl i do care; its why im doing this in the first place. but i cant take it anymore. so you've done what you wanted to do; good for you. now leave me alone. all this time you were pretending; but now i know.
*
omg love this song; though its rly sad. i like emo songs >< Concrete Angel - Martina McBride She walks to school with the lunch she packed Nobody knows what she's holdin' back Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday She hides the bruises with linen and lace
The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask It's hard to see the pain behind the mask Bearing the burden of a secret storm Sometimes she wishes she was never born
Through the wind and the rain She stands hard as a stone In a world that she can't rise above But her dreams give her wings And she flies to a place where she's loved Concrete angel
Somebody cries in the middle of the night The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate When morning comes it'll be too late
[Repeat Chorus]
A statue stands in a shaded place An angel girl with an upturned face A name is written on a polished rock A broken heart that the world forgot
[Repeat Chorus]
7:11 pm |
Saturday, May 19, 2007
rbd! maybe being second best isnt so bad. after all, most of the time, when you know who's second, you know who's first, and the cheers are always the loudest when the second is announced. [dont mind my random revelations (:]
but all the same, nothing can take away the initial sheer joy of being first :D [315 clones! you guys rocked okay!] much as i think we won by luck - the microphones screwed up for 312, and 311's song didnt exactly strike a chord with the judges [pardon random puns too! xD] and they liked our select-delete-copy-paste cloning symbolism so yeah (: and i had a clone, just for that one day xD go and read never let me go if you dont know what im talking about! :D
4:01 pm |
Friday, May 18, 2007
hope (:
hope (:
maybe it's coincidence; but i find that hoping really helps a lot.
the day before they returned our english papers i was about as agitated as a fish out of water about whether i'd fail or not [cuz the average level mark was a fail mark; from which logical people would have worked out that more than half the level failed]. and i was told tht 'we can always hope', and 'always remember to hope'. [thank you (:]
guess what; the next day, i dint want to look at my english paper, although i was hoping right up till i had it in my hands. i told shihui to look at my marks for me, i was afraid that looking at them myself would destroy my fragile thread of hope.
i was afraid; yet i hoped.
i passed english. not by a lot, but still (:
then there were rumours that they might [just might] moderate english; so i wrote down 'hope #1: that they moderate english!'
tht was ytd. and guess what, today mel told me tht she heard someone [i forgot who ><] say tht a teacher told her english would be considered upon 40 instead of 50 [which essentially means that my english mark would be 28/40 instead of 28/50]. and i must say, that is a huge moderation. [my gpa of 2.4 will then be a 3.2 haha (x] and alot of failures would now pass. its not officially confirmed, but if a teacher said that it shld be true. [and im hoping!]
i promise to always hope now, before i start being pessimistic and saying tht im gna fail (: becuz i've seen what optimism can do. (: [even if i failed english i wouldnt have cried anyway, unlike for chinese and bio ><, because i was happy, at least. (:] thanks (:(:
8:27 pm |
i'm just the girl in the corner, the girl with the wistful eyes;
jiaying
seventeen! but that'll change on 220910 xD
rafflesian
113'05, 210'06, 315'07, 415'08 10S03P!
redcrosser passed out;
tribunist [vchair yay :D] said farewell;
but i'll never forget those days(:
archer! :D
still a writer, yep.
save me... absolutely deranged
chocoholic
shopaholic
complete psychotic
stress-hater
panicky [i'm serious.]
unfortunately, more often than not, a broken rose. ... before i drive myself mad.
je t'aime; rgsrcy
tribune
rj archery!
writers' guild!
reading! xD
dancing <3!
singing
going on facebook and playing random games there HAHA
grand pianos [oh, nothing beats a grand!]
black; pink; chocolate brown :D
astronomy; knitting; archeryyy(:
pool; bridge; mahjong! xD
chemistry! [favourite subject (:]
needless to say, we must never leave out the two essences of life, chocolate and shopping! i can never do without
them hahaha(x
for all life is a dream, and dreams themselves are only dreams;
ra science nahh no chance alr. but nevermind(: >3.6 gpa [HAHA YES I DID IT FOR SECTHREE!(:] tribune chair vchair's good enough. and in any case, my term's over anyway. >3.6 SECFOUR gpa! YES I DID IT AGAIN! :D rj chem ra! thank God i got in! :D or uwc nordic! didn't apply; decided that specialising in sciences was the wiser choice, given my inaptitude
for humanities >< rj dance! street/intl also can :D :Dbut nevermind, because rj archery pwns all now!
not forgetting the typical wish for world peace, duh. (:
and i wish i could have him. or at least, if we're not meant to be, someone to love
and to love me back.&it's true that love ends up being a battlefield sometimes, but it's still love; blessed
love.
